Happy New Year!!

I am really hoping I can get back into this...
It has really been a rough couple of months for us. Lots of sickness. Some drama. Then many blessings....
My baby turned 3, can you even believe that? I can't. I am sort of sad and sort of relieved. Mixed feelings. I want a bit of my independence back but I mourn the loss of being depended on. Don't know if that makes sense.
I have another baby turning 5 in a few weeks....we are registering for kindergarten next week. It's so unreal!
I am kind of feeling a little lost. These kids have been my entire being and purpose for so long. I have been a SAHM for over 8 years, beginning in Oct 2001 when my stepdaughter came to live with us. I was 20 years old. I kind of feel like I gave up the wild, independent stage of life and replaced it with kids. Which is okay...but leaves me wondering exactly who I am now. I will be 29 next month and I have a 7 yr old, soon to be 5 yr old and a 3 yr old. I have NO regrets. Now is the time for me to begin thinking about my purpose in life though; aside from being a mother, who am I? I am afraid I do not know the answer to this question yet. Kind of scary if you ask me! I have ambitions. I want to help people. I don't know exactly how yet though. I am not sure how much I can handle. I would love to be a nurse or a psychologist but at times I feel I can do just as much doing smaller things. I know its awful but I cannot imagine so much time in school. I love to learn but I love to learn while doing! Not that I am a bad student, I am an exceptionally good one, but its SO much dedication. I think I am a commitment-phobe! Its a wonder I got married huh? :)
So that is where I am right now....and I don't feel alone. I think a lot of people think about their path in life during this time of the year. It's a New Year, an apt name for the season of resolutions and re-examination of your life. So I resolve to be happy, as I always do. No matter what. I am the life force of my family right now and it's the best thing I can do for everyone, to just be happy.