Friday, October 15, 2010
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
favorite songs this week
I usually have at least one favorite song. I Love to sing and music is a huge part of my life. So, boring as it may be, I decided its at least something to write about....So this week I have two favorite songs- "Glitter in the Air" by Pink and "Mine" by Taylor Swift. Pink really surprised me with this song. She is normally all hardcore and stuff, but this song is very deep and vulnerable. As for Taylor Swift, she is simply amazing. She has a song for my every mood. Couldn't stand her at first but can't live without her now.
My girls have their favorites too and I love that. Cara is loving on "The Only Exception" by Paramore. Bella is still stuck on the amazingly annoying "Bulletproof" by La Roux. That song is awful.
My girls have their favorites too and I love that. Cara is loving on "The Only Exception" by Paramore. Bella is still stuck on the amazingly annoying "Bulletproof" by La Roux. That song is awful.
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Wednesday, August 11, 2010
tomorrow is the beginning of the end....
That's right. School shopping for three kids. It's so exciting but also really sad. Thankfully, the baby will only go for a few hours three days a week. Whatever shall I do? Oh I know......pee and shower in peace. :)
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Tuesday, August 10, 2010
well, well....
Thanks SuzE for reminding me to blog and thank you android market for making it possible to do from my phone!! Being that my precious pink laptop is broken, this is extraordinary! !
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Thursday, March 25, 2010
*Sigh*
Having a really tough time dealing with life right now. When it rains, it pours right? Faith, hope and love are great, but it's hard to trust in those things to get you through sometimes. Of course, they always will, but still...... I need a better support system. Family who knows our circumstances and helps instead of criticizes would be good too. But what can I do? We don't have that. I wish there was someone I could trust and talk to.
Friday, March 12, 2010
Sharing my thoughts...
So we still have sickness here and it sucks...but oddly enough and pretty sadly, I am learning to live around it. With that said, I am blogging tonight about a movie I just saw.
I went to see this movie because 1) one of my favorite actors is in it and 2) it looked like a pretty good movie; like a romance/comedy/angsty drama. It was indeed all of the above and then at the end it was so much more, it was real life and real memories coming back to haunt me, to haunt everyone. (by the way, the movie is "Remember Me," so this is my official spoiler alert before you read on and find out what happens....if you want to see it and plan to see it, then do not ruin it for yourself!!)
So like I said, there was drama and some comedy and of course, romance. I laughed a lot, the whole theater did. I was loving it. Some bad things happened but you had the feeling it was going to work out, and of course it did. But somehow, I kept getting this feeling of dread. Things were coming together, the characters were contented and, well, real life happens....as it is apt to do from time to time. It was just so unexpected. Of course, now that I know what happens, there were many, many clues leading up to the ending. We learned that it was 2001, they went to see American Pie 2 in the theater, the father worked on wall street, and in the background former President Bush was giving a State of the Union address discussing stem cell research and such. So there were clues....but then you see the date on the chalkboard in the classroom and the main character looking out the windows of a very tall building on a gorgeous morning...the morning of Sept 11, 2001. At that point, the theater became absolutely silent. Just silence....then a lot of sniffling. We all knew what was coming. We saw some of the sights we saw on TV over nine years go- the ash falling from the sky, the police and firemen and rescue workers, the citizens of NYC standing stunned in the streets and finally the remains of the twin towers...which was, essentially, a lot of ash and debris. I don't know anyone who can't remember that day in detail. For me, I was working in Sanford, NC, an hour from home, at an opthalmologist's office. I went to call our next patient and everyone was staring at the TV in the waiting room. I honestly thought a movie was on....until I heard the reporters talking about what was occuring. I went back to the back of the office and started trying to call my husband knowing that if I didn't reach him right away there was no telling when I would be able to talk to him again. My husband was stationed at Ft Bragg, NC at that time and the post was immediately put on lockdown, but I was able to talk to him momentarily on his cell phone. Being in the 82nd Airborne division means you can go anywhere in the world within 24 hours. I was worried. I was in shock. And I was scared. At the end of the day driving home, we had to find a way around the main road that goes through Ft Bragg and that just terrified me more, made it more real to me for some reason. Just the fact that I didn't know which way to drive home. Once I did make it home I had to deal with a hysterical ex-wife calling to check on her baby-daddy...that was frustrating. Finally, late that night my husband came home. Many husbands didn't. Some still don't get to. All of these years later we are still losing people due to this tragic incident. Husbands, wives, sisters, brothers, mothers, fathers, friends.....so many have been lost. And for what? Hatred. That's really all it comes down to. Evil people full of hatred.
It upsets me that life goes on. I know it shouldn't, it's how we have survived this far through so many tragedies, but it still does upset me. How many people have forgotten? How often do we think of that day? How many people are praying for those nations and for all of the troops from all over the world still risking their lives every day? I hope people remember. I hate remembering but I don't ever want to forget. It hurts, but people from all walks of life have died...many on that day and many more since then.
I'm here, I am alive, and I am grateful. That was a wonderful movie......
I went to see this movie because 1) one of my favorite actors is in it and 2) it looked like a pretty good movie; like a romance/comedy/angsty drama. It was indeed all of the above and then at the end it was so much more, it was real life and real memories coming back to haunt me, to haunt everyone. (by the way, the movie is "Remember Me," so this is my official spoiler alert before you read on and find out what happens....if you want to see it and plan to see it, then do not ruin it for yourself!!)
So like I said, there was drama and some comedy and of course, romance. I laughed a lot, the whole theater did. I was loving it. Some bad things happened but you had the feeling it was going to work out, and of course it did. But somehow, I kept getting this feeling of dread. Things were coming together, the characters were contented and, well, real life happens....as it is apt to do from time to time. It was just so unexpected. Of course, now that I know what happens, there were many, many clues leading up to the ending. We learned that it was 2001, they went to see American Pie 2 in the theater, the father worked on wall street, and in the background former President Bush was giving a State of the Union address discussing stem cell research and such. So there were clues....but then you see the date on the chalkboard in the classroom and the main character looking out the windows of a very tall building on a gorgeous morning...the morning of Sept 11, 2001. At that point, the theater became absolutely silent. Just silence....then a lot of sniffling. We all knew what was coming. We saw some of the sights we saw on TV over nine years go- the ash falling from the sky, the police and firemen and rescue workers, the citizens of NYC standing stunned in the streets and finally the remains of the twin towers...which was, essentially, a lot of ash and debris. I don't know anyone who can't remember that day in detail. For me, I was working in Sanford, NC, an hour from home, at an opthalmologist's office. I went to call our next patient and everyone was staring at the TV in the waiting room. I honestly thought a movie was on....until I heard the reporters talking about what was occuring. I went back to the back of the office and started trying to call my husband knowing that if I didn't reach him right away there was no telling when I would be able to talk to him again. My husband was stationed at Ft Bragg, NC at that time and the post was immediately put on lockdown, but I was able to talk to him momentarily on his cell phone. Being in the 82nd Airborne division means you can go anywhere in the world within 24 hours. I was worried. I was in shock. And I was scared. At the end of the day driving home, we had to find a way around the main road that goes through Ft Bragg and that just terrified me more, made it more real to me for some reason. Just the fact that I didn't know which way to drive home. Once I did make it home I had to deal with a hysterical ex-wife calling to check on her baby-daddy...that was frustrating. Finally, late that night my husband came home. Many husbands didn't. Some still don't get to. All of these years later we are still losing people due to this tragic incident. Husbands, wives, sisters, brothers, mothers, fathers, friends.....so many have been lost. And for what? Hatred. That's really all it comes down to. Evil people full of hatred.
It upsets me that life goes on. I know it shouldn't, it's how we have survived this far through so many tragedies, but it still does upset me. How many people have forgotten? How often do we think of that day? How many people are praying for those nations and for all of the troops from all over the world still risking their lives every day? I hope people remember. I hate remembering but I don't ever want to forget. It hurts, but people from all walks of life have died...many on that day and many more since then.
I'm here, I am alive, and I am grateful. That was a wonderful movie......
Saturday, February 27, 2010
This and that.....
I have fallen off the blogging wagon again....oops.
Not a lot is new. We have more sickness going on. That, in and of itself, is soooo time-consuming.
We joined the Y two weeks ago so I have been working my little butt off trying to get in shape for the "Race for the Cure" on April 10th. I am really proud of myself for signing up. One of my friends asked me if I would like to do it with her and of course I said I would. My mom had breast cancer at 40 so this is definitely a cause I believe in. That could easily be me one day. The fundraising goal is set at $125 but I upped mine to $200 and have achieved 50% of that so far. The team goal was $1000 and that has been exceeded already so it's a win-win kind of thing. I am really happy to be doing this.
Just took a break from cleaning and laundry to have some coffee and a muffin from The Fresh Market....their muffins are to die for!! Mmmm......
Back to work!!
Not a lot is new. We have more sickness going on. That, in and of itself, is soooo time-consuming.
We joined the Y two weeks ago so I have been working my little butt off trying to get in shape for the "Race for the Cure" on April 10th. I am really proud of myself for signing up. One of my friends asked me if I would like to do it with her and of course I said I would. My mom had breast cancer at 40 so this is definitely a cause I believe in. That could easily be me one day. The fundraising goal is set at $125 but I upped mine to $200 and have achieved 50% of that so far. The team goal was $1000 and that has been exceeded already so it's a win-win kind of thing. I am really happy to be doing this.
Just took a break from cleaning and laundry to have some coffee and a muffin from The Fresh Market....their muffins are to die for!! Mmmm......
Back to work!!
Monday, January 11, 2010
An update and a double date!!
So first, my mouse update.
We caught three so far. The first of which was on a sticky trap, one that had been around for months. It was under the kitchen sink and I decided to move it to the space between the fridge and cupboards. Apparently, it REALLY wanted off that sticky trap because it wound up in the middle of the kitchen floor. Guess who found it....Cara. She came running down the hall screaming, "MOOOOUUUSSSSSSEEEEEE!!!!!!!" and crying. Poor baby. Daddy got it and threw it outside and then found another in the electronic trap. Out he went too. The next morning, another in the electronic trap. So that's that. We are slowly eradicating the mice.
On Saturday night, we went out on a double date. I had two Sangrias at dinner. Those were sooooo yummy. I was feeling pretty good after those. Laughing a lot and having a great time with our new friends. Alcohol tends to help my shyness. :) Unfortunately the movie selection was a buzzkill and actually made me a little motion sick in the beginning. We went to an old theatre and found that the movie was in the "screening room." It was about the size of my living room. People were packed in like sardines. It was a bit uncomfortable to say the least. If at 5'2" I was cramped, that's saying something! Anyways, it was "The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus." It was very odd. The acting was good but the story line was all over the place and I never really did "get it." All in all, it was a really good night. Sloooooowly making friends here. It has taken me long enough huh??
We caught three so far. The first of which was on a sticky trap, one that had been around for months. It was under the kitchen sink and I decided to move it to the space between the fridge and cupboards. Apparently, it REALLY wanted off that sticky trap because it wound up in the middle of the kitchen floor. Guess who found it....Cara. She came running down the hall screaming, "MOOOOUUUSSSSSSEEEEEE!!!!!!!" and crying. Poor baby. Daddy got it and threw it outside and then found another in the electronic trap. Out he went too. The next morning, another in the electronic trap. So that's that. We are slowly eradicating the mice.
On Saturday night, we went out on a double date. I had two Sangrias at dinner. Those were sooooo yummy. I was feeling pretty good after those. Laughing a lot and having a great time with our new friends. Alcohol tends to help my shyness. :) Unfortunately the movie selection was a buzzkill and actually made me a little motion sick in the beginning. We went to an old theatre and found that the movie was in the "screening room." It was about the size of my living room. People were packed in like sardines. It was a bit uncomfortable to say the least. If at 5'2" I was cramped, that's saying something! Anyways, it was "The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus." It was very odd. The acting was good but the story line was all over the place and I never really did "get it." All in all, it was a really good night. Sloooooowly making friends here. It has taken me long enough huh??
Friday, January 8, 2010
Hoping to engage in mass murder.....
.....of mice.
Yes, the mice have me SO upset that I am greatly looking forward to their death(s). Our house sat empty from May until Oct when we moved in. We have tried regualr traps and only caught one tiny mouse two months ago. I saw one again last night and I find their nasty droppings in the kitchen and living room. They make sounds at night that keep me up. We even have the plug in things that send out some sort of signal to repel them. Nothing works. So I have two electronic traps now and two little circular traps and lots of sticky traps plus the plug in things. I want them to go away and never come back...since that hasn't happened, well I just want them to die. I have kids and cannot afford to have their germs in my house!! So yes, I am going to be a horrible person and wish for their swift deaths tonight. The sooner they die the sooner I can get a full nights' sleep. Guess I am evil. :)
Yes, the mice have me SO upset that I am greatly looking forward to their death(s). Our house sat empty from May until Oct when we moved in. We have tried regualr traps and only caught one tiny mouse two months ago. I saw one again last night and I find their nasty droppings in the kitchen and living room. They make sounds at night that keep me up. We even have the plug in things that send out some sort of signal to repel them. Nothing works. So I have two electronic traps now and two little circular traps and lots of sticky traps plus the plug in things. I want them to go away and never come back...since that hasn't happened, well I just want them to die. I have kids and cannot afford to have their germs in my house!! So yes, I am going to be a horrible person and wish for their swift deaths tonight. The sooner they die the sooner I can get a full nights' sleep. Guess I am evil. :)
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Happy New Year!!
I am really hoping I can get back into this...
It has really been a rough couple of months for us. Lots of sickness. Some drama. Then many blessings....
My baby turned 3, can you even believe that? I can't. I am sort of sad and sort of relieved. Mixed feelings. I want a bit of my independence back but I mourn the loss of being depended on. Don't know if that makes sense.
I have another baby turning 5 in a few weeks....we are registering for kindergarten next week. It's so unreal!
I am kind of feeling a little lost. These kids have been my entire being and purpose for so long. I have been a SAHM for over 8 years, beginning in Oct 2001 when my stepdaughter came to live with us. I was 20 years old. I kind of feel like I gave up the wild, independent stage of life and replaced it with kids. Which is okay...but leaves me wondering exactly who I am now. I will be 29 next month and I have a 7 yr old, soon to be 5 yr old and a 3 yr old. I have NO regrets. Now is the time for me to begin thinking about my purpose in life though; aside from being a mother, who am I? I am afraid I do not know the answer to this question yet. Kind of scary if you ask me! I have ambitions. I want to help people. I don't know exactly how yet though. I am not sure how much I can handle. I would love to be a nurse or a psychologist but at times I feel I can do just as much doing smaller things. I know its awful but I cannot imagine so much time in school. I love to learn but I love to learn while doing! Not that I am a bad student, I am an exceptionally good one, but its SO much dedication. I think I am a commitment-phobe! Its a wonder I got married huh? :)
So that is where I am right now....and I don't feel alone. I think a lot of people think about their path in life during this time of the year. It's a New Year, an apt name for the season of resolutions and re-examination of your life. So I resolve to be happy, as I always do. No matter what. I am the life force of my family right now and it's the best thing I can do for everyone, to just be happy.
It has really been a rough couple of months for us. Lots of sickness. Some drama. Then many blessings....
My baby turned 3, can you even believe that? I can't. I am sort of sad and sort of relieved. Mixed feelings. I want a bit of my independence back but I mourn the loss of being depended on. Don't know if that makes sense.
I have another baby turning 5 in a few weeks....we are registering for kindergarten next week. It's so unreal!
I am kind of feeling a little lost. These kids have been my entire being and purpose for so long. I have been a SAHM for over 8 years, beginning in Oct 2001 when my stepdaughter came to live with us. I was 20 years old. I kind of feel like I gave up the wild, independent stage of life and replaced it with kids. Which is okay...but leaves me wondering exactly who I am now. I will be 29 next month and I have a 7 yr old, soon to be 5 yr old and a 3 yr old. I have NO regrets. Now is the time for me to begin thinking about my purpose in life though; aside from being a mother, who am I? I am afraid I do not know the answer to this question yet. Kind of scary if you ask me! I have ambitions. I want to help people. I don't know exactly how yet though. I am not sure how much I can handle. I would love to be a nurse or a psychologist but at times I feel I can do just as much doing smaller things. I know its awful but I cannot imagine so much time in school. I love to learn but I love to learn while doing! Not that I am a bad student, I am an exceptionally good one, but its SO much dedication. I think I am a commitment-phobe! Its a wonder I got married huh? :)
So that is where I am right now....and I don't feel alone. I think a lot of people think about their path in life during this time of the year. It's a New Year, an apt name for the season of resolutions and re-examination of your life. So I resolve to be happy, as I always do. No matter what. I am the life force of my family right now and it's the best thing I can do for everyone, to just be happy.
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